In the 50+ years I’ve been alive and kicking, I must admit that there is very little I can explain – except to say… “It must be God’s will.” People are big on asking WHY about everything. If I allowed myself to dwell on the whys in life, it would drive me crazy. I have to believe that I’m not a mom because God intended for me to do other things. I was not successful and very unhappy at the workplace, sitting in a chair in a cubicle – but I have to believe there were lessons God wanted me to learn. I hope I learned those lessons and would be a better person going forward.
We’re not meant to understand things – and I’m not a person who says they will ask God questions when I get to Heaven. I can’t imagine that any of the small stuff will matter once I get through the pearly gates! Nothing I face in this life is going to make a bit of difference once I’m in my eternal home! It’s a place of sweet peace and contentment. There are no more tears – and I will smile so big my cheeks will hurt!
Life is a mystery. Everything about life is mysterious, and God wants to keep it that way. How strong would our faith have to be if things were understood completely? It’s faith in God’s way and His plan that keeps us afloat in this life. We know that God loves us and wants His best for us. It occurs to me that He may have protected me somehow by not blessing me with children. Who knows what the issue may have been – of course, God knows. He knows – and that is enough for me. That’s my faith talking. I don’t know why, but I know Who does know why – and He’s not going to share that with me. It’s fine. I trust that God knows what is best for me. I pray for His comfort, joy, peace, patience and love.
I love mysteries, as you know. Whether it’s a book or a movie, or a program on Investigation Discovery channel, I get wrapped up in a good “who done it” – and even though I may figure it out in the first portion of the story, I still like to hear the particulars about the case. Those mysteries get solved, and we generally learn many crucial details along the way. God’s mysteries are not solved, except to Him, of course. The point is, they are His to divulge or keep to Himself. We have to accept that and place our faith and trust in Him, praising Him for Who He is.
The God who made the Heavens has made for us a way. 🙂