MOTHER’S DAY

MOTHER'S DAY

There are times only when a mother’s love can understand our tears,

Can soothe our disappointments and calm all our fears.

There are times when only a mother’s love can share the joy we feel

When something we’ve dreamed about quite suddenly is real.

There are times when only a mother’s faith can help on life’s way,

And inspire in us the confidence we need from day to day.

For a mother’s heart and a mother’s faith and a mother’s steadfast love

Were fashioned by the angels and sent from God above.

I’m at the point in the grieving process where I look at this day as a day of tribute to my mom.  It’s taken a long time to get to this stage, but I’m finally figuring out that my life will go on – it will just be so very different without her in it.

Last year, Lucinda wrote a poem for a lady who lost her mother.  She asked me to make a design for it and said this lady referred to her mother as her diamond.  I wish I could say I had a lovely name for my mother, but I didn’t.  My mom was my best friend, my confidant, the one I trusted more than anyone – but no, I didn’t have a pet name for her.

My first thought was, HOW PERFECT IS THAT?  It says it all, doesn’t it?  Diamonds are the most precious gem (and happens to be my birth stone)  😉

MY DIAMOND

If I could give you diamonds for each tear you cried for me;

If I could give you sapphires for each truth you’ve helped me see.

If I could give you rubies for the heartache that you’ve known,

If I could give you pearls for the wisdom that you’ve shown;

Then you’ll have a treasure, mother, that would mount up to the skies.

That would almost match the sparkles in your kind and loving eyes.

But I have no pearls, no diamonds as I’m sure you’re well aware;

So I’ll give you gifts more precious, my devotion, love and care.

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                                         Mama said this is the night daddy proposed.  Awe…  what a precious photo for me to have!

I know that when she entered heaven, it became a brighter place.  God provides the only light that is needed in heaven, but I believe it gets brighter every time a saint goes inside – each saint sparkles like a diamond.  I believe that she was so happy to see my daddy again.  Based on information from the book “Heaven is for Real”, I also believe that they are both 20 something and feel fantastic!  I imagine they look so happy together like this photo.  I hold it close to my heart because it brings me comfort.

My mother no longer has arthritis and has been made whole – she doesn’t need her 2 total hip replacements and will never have to take any medicine.  Bliss for eternity… how can I mourn that?  I can’t.  If and when I cry these days, it’s for myself.  I still miss them. 

 

A COMMENTARY FROM THE HEART

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PAIN IS MY GIFT

What is a gift?  Most of us think of a gift as something positive and fun – maybe even fashionable!  We give and receive gifts for happy occasions like Christmas, birthdays and anniversaries.  We usually give a gift that reflects a bit of our personality.  Many times I’ve given the gift of an angel figurine because I collect angels and believe so strongly that angels surround each of us every day.

I read a quote today that really made me re-think the concept of gifts.

Pain is a gift.  It puts us in a position where we’re quicker to be desperate for God.  When we seek Him, we will find Him.  – Lauren Scruggs

Wow – seriously – pain is a gift?  Well, at the risk of stating the obvious, I’m in pain and don’t feel like it’s a gift.  LOL.

I understand the concept – when we are at our lowest, that’s when we depend on God the most.  On the mountaintops we rely less on Him.  I’m not sure why it is like that, but I suspect it’s just human nature.  When the road is smooth, we don’t drive as cautiously and we’re not on the lookout for the potholes in the road.

My physical pain will be a distant memory soon, but not everyone’s pain is temporary.  There are so many different types of pain, and they all involve different kinds of suffering.    In addition to physical pain, there is mental, emotional, and spiritual pain.

Lauren Scruggs, a beautiful model, lost her eye and hand in an accident.  She wrote a wonderful book called Your Beautiful Heart; 31 Reflections on Love, Faith, Friendship, and Becoming a Girl Who Shines.  It’s my go-to book when I’m feeling sorry for myself.  Yes, even Christians suffer from self-pity from time to time.  We’re not perfect – just forgiven.  🙂

 

 

A COMMENTARY FROM THE HEART

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And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience…  – Romans 5:3

I’ve asked God to help me keep my sense of humor during this time of waiting.  Have you ever had to wait while in pain, just wishing that things would move along more quickly than they are?  At this point I know I will have surgery – but I don’t know when yet.

God reminded me of something today while I was looking around at a local nursery.  The most beautiful flowers surrounded me, so I slowly toured the open market and took in every little thing.  There were Monarch Butterflies everywhere!

I watched one of the butterflies on a flower.  Butterflies are such delicate creatures, yet when the wind kicked up, it was not blown off the flower.  The wings bent a little with the wind, but the sticky “feet” of the butterfly kept it in place.

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God spoke – “I gave that butterfly what it needs – to do what it needs to do.”

Will God do less for you and me?  Certainly not.

I’ve been a Christian for a long time.  There’s an old joke – you should never pray for patience because if you do, you will be given a trial or tribulation.  I assure you, I did not pray for patience, yet – here I am, dealing with a trial.

ALL I NEED

I feel hopeful now that God will help me through this.  It’s just a rough patch, a tribulation – thankfully, a temporary tribulation.  Pain makes most of us sparkle a little less, though we always want to be a good representative for our Savior.  It’s our opportunity to prove that His strength is perfect in our weakness.

He must become greater; I must become less.  – John 3:30

He knows my frustration in my situation right now, but He will give me everything I need to get through.  I know I’ll feel so much better after my surgery.  I do pray that God will help me in the meantime – and I know He will.  🙂