I STILL BELIEVE AS I GRIEVE

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My life in 9 minutes.  It’s much richer and deeper than it appears here.  LOL!!!  I have an advantage over you – I have the actual memories that go along with the photographs!  You are just seeing pictures that you can’t relate to – except maybe the hair styles or wild fashion statements we made at times in the 1970’s.  Life really IS a vapor…

There is a cloud of witnesses with me.  I’m glad, but sometimes I wish they were here to help me out with stuff.  I mean, I don’t think they would be a lot of help, but just having them here telling me it’s gonna be okay would be nice.

I have missed my family a lot this week.  It’s been the most technologically challenging week since I started the two facebook pages and the group.  It feels as though I have been smacked from all sides.  Most recently it appeared that You Tube had banned me, which I thought was odd and frankly – rash.  No warning or explanation – all of my You Tube posts were a square black – that’s all.

But this morning everything returned to normal on You Tube- so it must have been an issue with my computer – I don’t know.  That’s the problem – I don’t know.  Most people have someone they can turn to, but I feel like a Lone Ranger in Blog Land.  A million thoughts went through my mind – did I break a rule?

Did someone report me to You Tube for posting something I should not have (which, by the way, there is a setting that would not allow me to embed your video if you don’t want me to snag it).  It’s under Advanced Settings.  There’s a box that is checked by default – it says embed.  If you uncheck that box, I can’t snag your video for my blog.  If that box is not unchecked, I’m going to assume you don’t mind if I share it – but I will leave a question on your comments – something like “May I share this on my blog?”  Why?  Because I’m trying to be a nice, good person.  I want others to ask before using my slide shows, so…  I ask before snagging someone’s video.  It’s a Golden Rule philosophy.

I have not been able to post any of my own, original designs on my pages in facebook for a few weeks.  That has not changed – every time I try to post, I get an error message.  Thank God for the other administrators because they have happily taken up the slack for me and oh how I appreciate it!

Last night I hit the proverbial brick wall.  I was crying and got on my knees and cried out to God.  I asked for His guidance and He reminded me that everything, good and bad, happens for a reason and in His time, not mine.

Suddenly I didn’t feel so alone anymore.  The anxious, nervous, tense feeling left and was replaced with a calm reassurance that yes, these things are happening, but God has a plan.  It may be that one of the other administrators needs to be needed – and I sure do understand that feeling.  I don’t know the reason and I don’t have to know that.  I just have to know that it’s ok because God has this!  Wink!  😉