But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart. – Matthew 5:28
It’s not easy being the “token Christian” in the workplace. Along with 100 other women, I was confined to my own tiny cubicle for eight hours a day, with a fifteen minute break in the morning and fifteen minute break in the afternoon and a half hour for lunch – I needed some coping mechanisms to deal with every possible contingency. My coping mechanism of choice was prayer – and a lot of it.
I used to pray, “Lord, please bless this cubicle. Let those around me know You through me.” It was a simple prayer, but highly effective. It availeth much.
Friday – payday had finally arrived! I got paid every two weeks and was especially looking forward to this check. Like most people, I had plans for this money and it involved paying down some credit and loosening the grip financially just a bit.
My brown bag lunch was in the refrigerator (just one more way of economizing), but I got a phone call shortly before lunch time. It was a co-worker inviting me to have lunch with her. From the sound of her voice, I could tell there was something on her mind and she wanted to talk. I agreed and put my brown bag back in the fridge.
Since we only had a half hour, we walked across the street to the fast food restaurant. We had hardly got settled with our salads when she blurted out – “I can’t take it anymore!” There were tears welling in her eyes. Tons of possibilities came to mind – was she unhappy at work? Was she having a problem with a co-worker? A boss? ME?
I attacked the latter first – “Do you have a problem with me?,” I asked. She sort of laughed and let me know that it wasn’t me. She said she knew I was a Christian and would pray for her. I nodded in agreement as I listened. She explained that her husband had looked at porn on the computer a lot and that he was now beginning to put posters up in his garage.
She said, “Do you know how that makes me, as his wife, feel?” She felt like she was not enough – and would never be enough for him. She explained that her husband wanted her to have all sorts of reconstructive surgery to make her look better – more like the fantasy women he was looking at all day long. She was in tears and understandably so. Sadly the couple had two teenage children who were exposed to this immature and selfish behavior.
All I could do was listen and pray for she and her family. We prayed that day before going back to work. I pray for them every day – still.
I’m reminded of the fact that pornography destroys the family unit. It’s evil and more to the point – it’s make-believe! It’s not grounded in any kind of reality. Real life is not a perfect body and sex on demand. At the risk of sounding like a prude – I’m glad there’s much more to life than that. 🙂