MATTHEW 6:25 ON 6/25

TL 6-25 MATTHEW 6-25 ON 6-25

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?  – Matthew 6:25

I’m just going to say it and get it out of my system now…  OUCH!!!  I’m a self-proclaimed worry wart.  If I don’t have something to worry about, then I start worrying because I have nothing to worry about.  I’m human and yes, I know that faith is bigger than fear, and God is working with me on this.  I have FAITH that He will show me that I don’t have to FEAR and FRET about things.  It’s a work in progress.GOD THE BANKER

What is life, anyway?  I used to live to eat.  I’m not proud of it, but I did.  I used to wake up and wonder what was in the refrigerator to eat.  Food was my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night.  The result of that thought process and subsequent behavior pattern was a 70 pound weight gain, type 2 diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol.  Emotional eating is a horrible addiction.

Through prayer and study, God helped me find the underlying depression, He broke the bonds that held me captive, taught me how to treat my body instead of destroy it.  I no longer use food as a coping mechanism and it no longer has me in its grip.  Now, food is fuel instead of comfort.  God taught me that life is more than food.

The same depression was leading to a shopping addiction and substantial debt.  God is so patient with me.  He taught me that life is not about the clothes I wear.  The woman with the designer handbag is not the happiest.  There is a high when you first make the purchase, but that quickly turns into buyer’s remorse.  By the time you get your shoes, bags, clothes, jewelry and anything else you think will make you happy out to the car, you have a sinking, sick feeling in the pit of your stomach.  Debt causes stress and stress makes me worry.  What a vicious cycle.

Dear God, I am hungry for more of You. Today I am boldly coming into Your presence to receive the help I need.  In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

There’s no possession in this world that means as much as my relationship with God, through His Son, Christ Jesus.  All I want now is to hear Him say the words, WELL DONE when my life is finished.  Nothing else really matters.

You would not know I’m the same person who was so wrapped up in food and clothing not so long ago.  Today, I’m 30 pounds lighter, have cut up over 10 credit cards and my debt is manageable.  Funny thing, but I don’t worry as much as I used to either.  Hmm…

Now when I get mad money, I go into my local Goodwill store and I’m perfectly content to wear gently used vintage clothing.  Once in a while I even find a designer label – but shhh…  don’t tell.

Life is more…  so much more than food and clothing.  I’m here to tell you that God can break chains and He will if you ask Him to…  He will help you identify the underlying depression and speak His truth to your spirit until you see yourself the way He sees you.  He loves you so much and wants to help.  🙂

 

 

MATTHEW 5:28 ON 5/28

MATTHEW 5 28 ON 5 28

 But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart.  – Matthew 5:28

It’s not easy being the “token Christian” in the workplace.  Along with 100 other women, I was  confined to my own tiny cubicle for eight hours a day, with a fifteen minute break in the morning and fifteen minute break in the afternoon and a half hour for lunch – I needed some coping mechanisms to deal with every possible contingency.  My coping mechanism of choice was prayer – and a lot of it.

I used to pray, “Lord, please bless this cubicle.  Let those around me know You through me.”  It was a simple prayer, but highly effective.  It availeth much. 

Friday – payday had finally arrived!  I got paid every two weeks and was especially looking forward to this check.  Like most people, I had plans for this money and it involved paying down some credit and loosening the grip financially just a bit.

My brown bag lunch was in the refrigerator (just one more way of economizing), but I got a phone call shortly before lunch time.  It was a co-worker inviting me to have lunch with her.  From the sound of her voice, I could tell there was something on her mind and she wanted to talk.  I agreed and put my brown bag back in the fridge.

Since we only had a half hour, we walked across the street to the fast food restaurant.  We had hardly got settled with our salads when she blurted out – “I can’t take it anymore!”  There were tears welling in her eyes.  Tons of possibilities came to mind – was she unhappy at work?  Was she having a problem with a co-worker?  A boss?  ME? 

I attacked the latter first – “Do you have a problem with me?,” I asked.  She sort of laughed and let me know that it wasn’t me.  She said she knew I was a Christian and would pray for her.  I nodded in agreement as I listened.  She explained that her husband had looked at porn on the computer a lot and that he was now beginning to put posters up in his garage.

She said, “Do you know how that makes me, as his wife, feel?”  She felt like she was not enough – and would never be enough for him.  She explained that her husband wanted her to  have all sorts of reconstructive surgery to make her look better – more like the fantasy women he was looking at all day long.  She was in tears and understandably so.  Sadly the couple had two teenage children who were exposed to this immature and selfish behavior.

All I could do was listen and pray for she and her family.  We prayed that day before going back to work.  I pray for them every day – still.

I’m reminded of the fact that pornography destroys the family unit.  It’s evil and more to the point – it’s make-believe!  It’s not grounded in any kind of reality.  Real life is not a perfect body and sex on demand.  At the risk of sounding like a prude – I’m glad there’s much more to life than that.  🙂