A SUMMER OF PSALMS

In 1975 my thinking about suffering in life was challenged in a profound way.  A film depicting the Ten Boom family during WWII called “The Hiding Place” was playing at a local theater.  Once I saw it, Corrie Ten Boom became my favorite person on the planet.  I’m thankful to everyone involved in the film.  Nobody understands why my favorite movie is about such a horrific time in history.  Well, I suppose it’s because this film taught me about adversity in life and how to react when bad things happen.

We don’t like to think about storms, do we?  And yes, I guess this movie could be considered a “downer” to some people, but I walked away with the thought that if Corrie Ten Boom was able to lean so heavily on God and trust Him to see her through something so unbelievably evil, then I can trust Him for any bad situation I find myself in!  I was not depressed after watching it – I felt a peace and a hope that God is sufficient for any circumstance in life.  He is and always will be enough.

One day a psychologist friend asked me how I’m able to function in life.  We had talked a bit about how bumps in the road of life can affect us in negative ways as Christians.  The first thing people notice about me is that I don’t have children.  They become uncomfortable at that point.  Nobody knows what to talk about with me because the “go-to” subject of any conversation is kids.  How old are your kids?  What school do they go to?  It’s the most predictable conversation people have when they meet for the first time.

But when they ask if I have children and I say no, they’re at a loss.  They have no idea what to say next.  Once in a while I hear, “Oh, then you probably have fur babies then, right?”  Well, yes I did – but we lost our fur baby a while back.  Sometimes I just smile or nod yes to save face.  I don’t want two pity pauses in the conversation.

I was chatting with a friend recently and the subject of childlessness came up and I said something to the effect that I felt like a freak.  She said, “It stinks.”  It’s true – it does!  There’s not a thing I can do about it, but it does!  Sometimes you just want someone to acknowledge the fact that something stinks, ya know?  I felt better after she said that – I felt understood.

When I was younger, it was difficult to be around the women my age who were having children.  I kept thinking it would get easier as I got older, but now those same women have grandchildren and no…  it’s no easier to deal with that either.

The Bible says that children are a reward… which makes a childless person wonder if they are being punished Everyone’s quick to tell me that’s not the case, but that’s not how it feels.  One of my friends told me that the Lord may have saved me from worse heartache because perhaps a child of mine could have had serious health issues or something like that.  Well – I guess that could be true too.  I just don’t know – but I have to trust God.  He knows what He’s doing and I need to accept it.

God does surround me with songs of victory.  He helps me cope with all kinds of loss.  I can’t really explain it except to say I know in my soul that God’s helping me.  When it storms and I’m tempted to give up, I hear that sweet song of victory and I know it will be okay.  The Lord is with me.  Oh, and even though Corrie Ten Boom is no longer alive, she’s still my favorite person.  🙂

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A COMMENTARY FROM THE HEART

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GRATITUDE TO THE MAX

I would go so far as to say that practicing gratitude even as you complain about your aches and pains is acceptable and proper. God understands.   – Linda Palmer

There are days when diabetes is difficult, or fibromyalgia is frustrating, or migraines are mischievous – but this is one of those rare days when it all hits at the same time! WIPE OUT!!!  My fasting blood sugar was horrible because my other conditions are present. The second I woke up I felt my head playing “Wipe Out” and knew that Excedrin Migraine would be among the morning drugs I’d take.

When my first foot hits the floor I say ‘Thank’ and when my second foot hits I say ‘You’.  Then I say ‘Thank You’ all the way to the bathroom.  A grateful heart is the key to happiness.  – Roma Downey

On days like this, when my health is such a challenge, I’m still grateful to be alive – to be living. I’ll admit that I wanted to go back to sleep – and I really wanted to lie back down when I tried to get out of bed and every joint in my body felt like burning coals. I will practice gratitude – yes, even today. God is good – all the time!

We have a storm moving into our area. I do not watch the weather – I don’t have to. When I feel this bad I know the humidity is very high and we have some rain moving in. I’m more reliable than any weather man. I should get the weather man’s paycheck. LOL!!!

I’m alive to complain – praise God!!! I am grateful.

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. – Psalm 46:1

Now – I have to stop looking at this computer. The light sears my brain – right behind my right eye. Tomorrow is a new day. I will find comfort today in the knowledge that God is my refuge and strength!  🙂